body shop post #2

so i forgot to write about body shop last week, so i'll have to roll the two into one...

i am finding that i'm not as sure of myself with this group of kids. the group that i worked with in the past we kids that i had known in some capacity for a while and they were mostly "churched" kids. now, i don't know any of them, some get no church other than wednesday night youth group, and some are just rougher kids. i don't know if i'm afraid or what, but for whatever reason i'm having a hard time even going up and introducing myself to girls. i so badly want to do well in my time there and to build relationships with the girls, but so far it has been really hard.

another part that has been a little difficult is how i relate with the other leaders there. there are several college students who help out and i've been there for three weeks now and two of the probably 20 or so have even talked to me at all. i can tell which of the leaders have been helping there for a while because they interact with each other, but its almost like a "don't talk to the new kid until she's not new anymore" thing....it's just really weird. i kind of wished that there was a time when all of the leaders could get together and just hang out and get to know one another. i feel that doing that would really build that team feeling and that we would all work together better to love and serve the kids that come.

i don't know if i'm making much sense, i'm just kind of unloading my thoughts...more to come